I can't make it through without a way back into love..

Why am I troubled by what they would think of me, whether it's right or wrong, whether anything is possible or not? Who knows? I don't know why, but I find it's the safest way to be skeptic about everything around me, since the only truth I know is that everything is confusing till a certain point occurs, that things aren't simply true, right or even wrong all the time. Things just happen. God knows why they do. We just like to connect them together, because we enjoy being emotional; either too dramatically black-thinking or too anxiously optimistic. To me, it seems like a nice paradigm to escape in from any truth that might suddenly prove to be temporary true.

But since I can't criticize something I don't have an alternative to, I can only keep some distance to those I describe, those I tend to call escapists or extremists. But who says anyone should have an alternative?! Anyone should propose his own paradigm as long as they're willing to adopt it with a believing heart. It's believing what makes us go through whatever we want, not that we're sure about anything but simply because we prefer it this way.

Like I never saw God or met him or anything of that sort. It's just I love to view my life coming to a certain and meeting with him. I prefer a God-worshiping path rather than an evolution-based one. It just scares me to think of us as an ordinary event that will fade away sometime as any other coincidence. I believe that our souls aren't as any other nature-resulted living thing. I can imagine a cell producing life, but not a soul. A cell can bring you to move but not to feel.

I guess we tend to overreact to certain incidents in life which will more or less be forgotten one day or the other, while it's much practical and enjoyable to live life as it is: enjoy the good moment and not regret the one that's lost. After all, only the good moments are the ones we will be remembering when nothing else is left. After all, causing ourselves misery and depression for no good reason would be the one thing we regret, the one thing we would be glad to leave behind and move on.

I know life doesn't provide us only happy moments, but why don't we just appreciate it when it does and stop blaming it on anything or anyone. Because, honestly, only fools rush into blaming and miss the fun part of life!