It's just a thought..only a thought

I've always thought that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

It's just a thought, only a thought

These words are most likely to describe how things seem to develop our perception of future. Okay, not that dramatic as portrayed in the upper words, but these words do reflect a truth to a certain extent, if not to all of us, to the ones who still hadn't achieve what they aimed yet.

It's just that our former dreams, of being successful if not perfect, of getting what we want..this thought of superiority or confidence since childhood..doesn't seem to be applicable anymore. The image of our childhood phase, portraying an 'undefeated' us, capable of doing everything and erasing any fault proved to fade away in the middle of the rush, was stepped on by the monotonous though surprising 'everyday' life.

I guess the reason why these thoughts and aims aren't obtainable or practical anymore is that they are too perfect and allude to a Utopian world, which can never exist. Nevertheless this doesn't mean giving them up. It only means we don't have to focus on the fact that we lost them, I guess we should rather try to accomplish some duties allowing us to approximate our long aimed perfection.

Life is a challenge indeed

The last couple of weeks I have noticed that life -as I said before- isn't about routines. If you think you can live your life following a certain, non-changing pattern (not talking about principles of course), then you will realize sooner or later that something is not really working.

An essential talent few of us posses is the ability of accommodating to the surprises of life.
I have been watching 'Prison break' lately and among other things I have learnt from this exciting TV series is that even if you have planned things perfectly, life and your fellow human beings won't stop surprising you from time to time. You can never be sure of any success until you actually fulfilled the plan you have drawn.

As much as this fact is a bit disappointing and all, we have to challenge it rather than surrender to it.

Throughout my life journey (not being arrogant but I can't find a fitting word), I have read lots and lots of quotes, people trying to find themselves an 'everlasting' life pattern. But I think the best way of dealing with life is to focus on accommodating instead of searching for suitable, changeable quotes, which only apply for a certain, rather short period of time.

Life changes and, therefore, we have to concentrate on how to survive and deal with things the best and dignified way possible: Fulfilling plans but at the same time bearing in mind the uprising sudden changes life keeps threatening us with. We have to prove how well we can hold on in order to achieve what we want.

That's the simplest secret of life I have ever experienced.

Just another amusing day..

Today was one of the greatest days ever, when you pretty much did nothing extraordinary, but it feels you have done everything and every pleasant thing possible. Reason for such feelings, which rush into our souls all of a sudden, is the sudden change of behaviour and atmosphere.

It's just I had vacation for so long and I got used to sitting at home, pretty much doing nothing but watching TV, surfing the Internet or reading. I needed to loosen up and undergo some kind of a refreshment.

I went out once before, but this time it was a bit different. I helped two friends to reconcile, was some sort of a surprise for one of them, actually one of my best friends. Then, we hanged around, went shopping for our trip to Prague and had little amusing chats.

I really don't know what I would have done without friends, their being there for me makes life a new, better, refreshable world, their existence pushes me to proceed and survive all the bad incidents in my life.

Thanks.

Why did you come back?

(Gave way to my fantasy and came up with this.:)

Didn’t I start to forget you for a while? Or let’s say didn’t I at least start pretending to forget you once and for all? Why do you always pop up into my life when you’re not needed, I mean when you want nothing but abusing my heart? Am I just some game you amuse yourself with and fly back to your real life? I have realized that I can’t really help but falling again? Why did you do so? Why did you come back while I was on my way to a new, promising life? I just don’t get what you intend to do with me. I don’t even get why I leave all my wings uncovered when I see you, though I know that you’re going to unfold them and grab me to your mysterious illusions.

Is it my destiny; falling from your one delusion to another? Am I to be so weak forever? Why can’t I resist your silly charm once in my whole life …stupid me?? Imagine my life without you …wouldn’t be as charmed as it is now, but don’t you think being charmed has caused me enough pain? Why can’t I take this step and save my soul from further tormenting? When people drive by me, I feel so pathetic and boring; living a life about, with and for you.