Whenever I think about you..

Yesterday I had a really rough time; nothing went right and I pretty much lost hope and connection to everything. Sometimes, when things seem to reach a dead end I happen to doubt everything and reach a stage of endless confusion, which happens to everyone I guess.

I once read that we all go through everything; meaning: we all have our ups and downs, as equal and unfortunate as can be. But there has to be this one thing you can never give up on, this one person you can never doubt his felicity; the one independant fact of all time. And as much I cherish friends and thank God for having them around, I think there is something bigger and worthy than friendship, something that should never be changed: faith.

And by faith I do mean God, no matter how different we prefer to call him. It's just yesterday I had this weird thought that faith and doubt, as every other opposite in this world, cannot exist without one other. To be more elaborate: You can never experience something without penetrating its contrary; you can never have faith without spending some time doubting, trying several errors and coming to the consequence of faith.
Why? Simply because any other feeling you have would be either sympathy or a forced habit, not something you're convinced of, by virtue of your true, deep personal experience.

I realized it's not wrong to be mistaken as long as being mistaken will eventually lead to knowing what's right. That's why: it's not important whether you've once doubted God's existence or not, because he'll appreciate it more knowing the trials you went through in order to believe in him and to "achieve faith".

I realized that no matter how wrong you might be, how miserable you think you are and how rough time can be, you'll still have this one and only, God, watching you and wishing you the best, providing you peace once you've asked for it, letting you know that even though you might feel betrayed or lonely, he's keeping you the best company ever!

The best way out of it..

When was the last time you decided: I have to change myself, this can go on no longer! I have to do something about it! Was it really worth the change or do you sometimes regret it?Would it have been better if you proved to yourself you're right, instead of yielding to some uprising push for a new beginning?

A few days ago, I was wondering if there is something in life which is so efficient that it can force you to change your whole perspective, your basic point of approaching to anything in life. It's like turning your life upside down upon one single incident?

For certain people, a change is something urgent because the way things are makes them face major problems in their lives. But, in other cases, I don't really think it necessary to rely your whole life on this or that incident, even though you might have been mistaken.

Some things are really meant to be the way they are, not that we can't do anything about them or give effort to improve or influence them. It's just our perception of 'the catastrophes in life' that has to be changed somehow. We all know that life is a moody friend, one day on your side, the other against you. So, why should we torture our nerves thinking how we messed up in this part of our lives, when that's something we already know since the beginning of mankind.

In fact, I admire those of us who, in the middle of their miserable moments, stand calm and try to think of the better days lying ahead. These are rare heroes of our days, compared to those other nervous creatures, who stumble on every daring moment, calling themselves emotional, while , in fact, they're nothing but insecure, unexperienced people.

We may never realise how stupid we act, and how exaggerated our reactions are until we get to part from 'ourselves' and slip into this other 'us' who would have a completely different opinion, an objective one, supposedly. By slipping into this other soul, we are practically taking the first step on our path out of our constant, surprising dilemmas: We are giving ourselves time to criticize ourselves, without getting hurt or offended. It's like a fight and only the calm ones win. When thinking of it, it doesn't take us more than time to achieve this prize, the prize we all long for: peace of mind.