Whenever I think about you..

Yesterday I had a really rough time; nothing went right and I pretty much lost hope and connection to everything. Sometimes, when things seem to reach a dead end I happen to doubt everything and reach a stage of endless confusion, which happens to everyone I guess.

I once read that we all go through everything; meaning: we all have our ups and downs, as equal and unfortunate as can be. But there has to be this one thing you can never give up on, this one person you can never doubt his felicity; the one independant fact of all time. And as much I cherish friends and thank God for having them around, I think there is something bigger and worthy than friendship, something that should never be changed: faith.

And by faith I do mean God, no matter how different we prefer to call him. It's just yesterday I had this weird thought that faith and doubt, as every other opposite in this world, cannot exist without one other. To be more elaborate: You can never experience something without penetrating its contrary; you can never have faith without spending some time doubting, trying several errors and coming to the consequence of faith.
Why? Simply because any other feeling you have would be either sympathy or a forced habit, not something you're convinced of, by virtue of your true, deep personal experience.

I realized it's not wrong to be mistaken as long as being mistaken will eventually lead to knowing what's right. That's why: it's not important whether you've once doubted God's existence or not, because he'll appreciate it more knowing the trials you went through in order to believe in him and to "achieve faith".

I realized that no matter how wrong you might be, how miserable you think you are and how rough time can be, you'll still have this one and only, God, watching you and wishing you the best, providing you peace once you've asked for it, letting you know that even though you might feel betrayed or lonely, he's keeping you the best company ever!