Being a loser(What can I do??)
Ever felt you don't know who to listen to? People? Friends? Parents? Yourself?
What if you wanted to choose to listen to yourself and decided you're the right one? What if you were furthermore convinced of your opinion and perspective? What if you just can't go on with what you're convinced is right because it's just either not realistic anymore or not practical??What if you feel yourself falling in some delusion and not able to get out of it? What if this delusion is exactly the sort of distraction you wanted to prevent?
They say this stupid teenage phase is the part where you have to build up your personality, which influences your future life. What if you are too weak to do so? Are you lost then? What if you feel everyone around are knowing what they're doing and that they're on the right track, whereas you're left amongst all your questions? What if it is time out for you to change or help yourself, because you just can't or won't or whatever? What if at some point you just can't help falling apart because you never thought you'll be a loser one day? What if you want to change but haven't got what it takes or don't asln know what it takes??
What if deep inside you you know you're right, but that simply doesn't match with what's happening to you? What if people around you are either not getting what you say or blaming you for what you do??
What if all this happened? What are you supposed to react? Please don't tell me the usual stuff about having faith in yourself, because faith isn't always what you lack.
Sorry for being upset, but it's not my fault. Maybe it is. I just felt this way and wanted to share it.