Confusion
You know these moments when things start to collapse after they were so fun and could be no better? I am having one of these moments right now. Not that school is starting in a few hours, though it's one of the unimportant reasons. It's just I have been having a great vacation, which could be no better, and then, all of a sudden: everything has to collapse after being a bit perfect.
You know when you feel that everything (well most of the things) you believed in are false and fake and that you have to give them all up? Of course, among all this rubbish I'm talking lies a large bit of exaggeration, but I can't stop it.

Why can't life take a mid line: I mean why can't we just live normally, no too happy moments and no too lousy ones. Why can't life be boring and monotonous and all the things we're escaping from at a time. Yes, life would be boring without dreams. And yes, it would be boring without fights and sorrows, unluckily. But this is not the solution: to live only ups and downs. Excuse my nonsense, but that's how it feels right now.

Ok, I admit things are not that bad as I am viewing them. Well, it's just I was so excited for today. We were supposed to go to the book fair and find a bunch of interesting books. But while I was trying to make things right with a friend (a close one), I was the one to get blamed. Don't ask me if it's bad luck or mishandling things from my side, but it did happen and I don't even want to think about it. I would say both. So the fun disappeared and instead was remorse, a bit anger and worries. And here I am, regretting the fact that this was how my holidays ended. But let's look on the bright side: I had a bit fun all in all (during the vacation I mean) and I relaxed. I guess I am too ambitious to wish for more.

Changing the subject would help...At the end of the day I bought any book which seemed interesting. My choice was "Dubliners", the Irish collection by James Joyce. Well, we read some extracts of it in the English lesson, they were good and nice to read. I hope and think I am going to enjoy reading this book. Don't ask me why, but I am so keen on reading at the moment. And if not, then I would borrow any book from the school library, which I don't think is much different from the book fair thing. I just want to read and that's it.

Apart from that, I went to the AUC and got this application forum. And even in this, things weren't as easy as I thought they would be. They said we had to pass or do this exam to transfer to the university. My dad started worried and imagining obstacles, which make me believe that I won't attend this university after I am starting to like the place and all. Never mind, you never know which college you'll join so early, in my opinion at least. You just attend one and after a while you find yourself in it, with all it's pros and cons.

I guess that's it with exaggeration for today.